Something for thought....

I have been spending a long time in thought tonight. Deep in thought. I have been thinking about Anastasia and Adam and just how far I am willing to take thier relationship. To hit or not to hit, I suppose that is the direct question at hand. I wonder if I am taking it too far for myself if he physically abuses her. I can picture in my mind her hitting him; it only makes sense that she would eventually reach the breaking point and lash out in extreme anger. But should I have him hit her. If he did, there certainly would be a great deal of justification on her part for staying with him after that. I am just not sure if I am ready to make her face such an obstacle. I really like Anastasia, I feel as though she is a part of me. Time will tell I suppose...

I try to stay out of my home as much as I possibly can at the moment. The demolition has begun and unfortunately it is in the room where I prefer to work. So it is with a heavy heart that I sit through another day with earplugs. This house has a hold over me and although I leave as much as possible, that only adds up to about an hour every day. Bryce has slowly started talking to me, but I noticed that only when his brother Daryl is not around. Daryl is your typical Alpha-male who just seeps sexuality/border-line creepiness. Bryce always seems to be in the shadow. I think I am going to have to find a way for him to come into the light. My light...